Thursday, April 25, 2013

Shut Up

I recently received good news, like really good news, regarding my profession. Although I am happy about what is happening and what is going to happen, I'm not particularly acting like it.

I can't take compliments, like real ones. I always have a snarky sardonic comment, act defensively, or try to not draw attention to it. It's weird because I should be grateful, and I am, but my mouth moves too fast and gets ahead of me.

So in separate instances, when people have congratulated me on this new path, my reaction is "Shut up." Shut up? Seriously? Seriously Osc, shut up? Yes. I wish it were nicer but before I can control the verbal sewage that comes out of my mouth, it's out there. Granted I don't intend it in a mean way and definitely don't shout it. It has quite a playful tone, one where you know that no one is going to get butt hurt. However, I really need to come up with a better reaction. Even after the third instance when I finally caught myself doing it, here came incident number four and I did it again. Granted, I keep myself in good company where I can get away with that.

Need to watch that mouth Osc, need to watch that mouth, because this stuff isn't going to fly in the months to come.

Monday, April 22, 2013

Anew

Today was interesting. It was like looking into my future, and I have mixed emotions about it. I knew it was coming, today it was set in stone, and now that it's here it's a bit scary.

Although I'm still heebie jeebied about a couple of things, I'd like to think its for the best. It's for my own growth. There was a lot to take in today, it's still processing in my head.


In other news, I had an amazing time participating in the Walk Now for Autism Speaks event at the Rose Bowl. My awesome team raised over $800!!!! Amazing!!! Beyond what I did last year and beyond what I had set as our goal. Thank you Etna, Scott, and Andrew and Raymond :-) Can't wait to do it bigger and better next year.




Monday, April 15, 2013

Post post post

Isn't it funny how if you put something out there in the universe that you get it back? Big time! The day, in fact, the morning after my last post, it came back to me in a powerful way.

Sometimes people surprise you, the universe surprises you, and your faith in the world strengthens.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

"Viva Forever"

Don't knock the song based on who sings it. When you learn what influenced the lyrics, listen to lyrics, know that it's influenced a theater production and even moved Luciano Pavarotti to sing his own version of it, then you'll appreciate it.

There's a line there that always (well more than one) grabs a hold of me, "hasta maƱana, always be mine."

Geri Halliwell, the composer of the track, explained in a documentary I once watched that the song explains how you have those people you will always love, but you need to give them a "see you later."
This song caught my attention, especially from the harmonies, before I really understood it.  Once I understood, it became very ingrained in my head.

I feel with age, it becomes a credo for how things in life go.  You have those friends and loved ones that you will always cherish, and you know how you feel, and they know how you feel, and they feel the same, and it all happens with little to no contact.  It happens more and more often.  You don't have to be with people all the time to know that you love them, and sometimes letting go makes things better.  It's a "goodbye for now" but you will always be a part of me and the person I am.

I'm not isolating any cases, but just thought it was a nice tidbit of philosophy to share.

One more lyric before "Viva forever, everlasting like the sun, live forever, for the moment."